I'm trying to cope with disappointment and probably just venting a little too. It was my 40th birthday yesterday, and even though I asked for some very specific items (a new therapeutic pillow, because he asked me what I wanted and I need this), my...More
I'm trying to cope with disappointment and probably just venting a little too. It was my 40th birthday yesterday, and even though I asked for some very specific items (a new therapeutic pillow, because he asked me what I wanted and I need this), my partner got me a ridiculous amount of comic books and candy that he knows I do not like at all. The amount of money spent on the books was more than enough to pay for the pillow I really wanted (the pillow costs $130 and I absolutely cannot justify the cost, we have bills). He did this at Christmas too. I had asked for a massager, he couldn't find one so he bought me 3 different things none of which massages, and spent the same amount of money on all 3 that it would have cost for the massager! I wanted to return them, but we are past the date because he couldn't find the receipt. So now i have a stack of comics and other contraptions I don't like and won't use, and I still really want my new pillow. I woke up from a dead sleep 2 hours before my alarm just to ruminate on this. I don't want to be like this, I want to be grateful and thankful and happy about gifts that are given to me, but I'm finding myself sad, disappointed and a little frustrated instead.
