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So, here's a sock in the gut from last night. Me and my bbf Jamie became really mad when one of our friends snapped at us for messaging a group chat the three of us are in. We didn't know what she was doing and she blatantly told us to "SHUT UP!" We are both very angry and she feels shes in the right to snap at us for messaging her while she was busy AND WE DID NOT EVEN KNOW SHE WAS BUSY!!! She apologized to my Jamie but when she shared with me the apology she gave, I didn't really buy it because apart from the snapping part. I am still incredibly ticked off at our friend for not just treating me like trash but at Jamie too just by snapping like that instead of being polite. And after a year of dealing with my dad's sleeping problems for the first 9 months of the year and then pop pops death in late october and work stress increasing, this is the cherry on top of the cake to end 2022 aka my worst year ever.

You ordered buttered noodles at every fancy restaurant
You shrieked when your T shirts contained tags
You couldn’t stand the feeling of seams in your socks and would always turn them inside out
You had no friends besides your parent’s friends children that were forced to play with you and would reluctantly do so
You were bullied heavily
Despite that you didn’t necessarily look different
You weren’t mean either
You oftentimes escaped your body in stressful situations
And would get reprimanded for “being in your own little world”
You’d be harassed quietly and rebuttal loudly you’d be the only person disciplined
You were described as “quirky and a little... off?”
Your family friends said you’ll “grow out of it”
Your parents took you to an appointment at an early age in which you were asked a series of questions you barely understood
You just wanted to play with the cool putty over in that corner
They put you on a pill that made you tired and caused weight gain
You’d go back every couple of months to put your feet in corn & rice with objects you’d have to pick out with your toes
You’ve never had a boyfriend
A best friend
Or even a slumber party
Your only friend is twice your age
You only get along with little kids and those older than yourself
Your peers seem alien
When you finally get a significant other you’re not sure what to do and usually rush they also become your whole focus or perhaps the opposite
You get your first job and it’s grade school all over again
They all talk behind your back bully you trying to invoke a reaction you are sexually harassed you finally breakdown you’re having a melt down at work nonetheless
You report these happenings to your higher-ups they fire you and suggest you “grow up”
Welcome to the world of autism, it can be cruel.