Book Of Likes Faces

I’m feeling sorry for myself today, just being honest. Today is my son's 13th birthday and he hasn’t spoken to me in ten years and I don’t even know why, but he stays with his father; the father who told everybody when we got divorced that he wasn’t paying child support, and went to Texas, working under a false social security number. My son was three when he left so I guess his father became his idol. So, I’m feeling sorry for myself because I need to know why, what I did to warrant being tossed aside like I don’t matter. I still love him so much and it hurts.