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f I had to be completely honest with myself…I am tired. I am tired and its not a physical tiredness … its a very … you know, its in the soul. Its like im freaking tired and broken. Tired of going through this s***. Im tired of everything not working out and im just like … i really tried, and … i can’t not lie and say its not like ‘you dont wanna live’ kind of thing. Its more of : if god were sitting across from me right now, there would be a part of me that would just go up to him and say “listen, im done. I cant do this anymore. Im just physically and mentally spent and im done”. And its a silent battle, too. Its a battle kind of hide from the world and from the people I love and the people I want to love and the people who wants to love me because … who wants a broken person? You know, its like, if they knew … if the people in my life knew how broken i am, would they stay? And that raises the question, like “how do i fix this? Can i fix this? I dont know yet, but I am still driven to try though.